Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.
My first day as a fiancée was uneventful with the exception of putting ring on and taking it off. Then doing the same thing over and over again.
I thought to myself argggggghhhhh. How long will I wait till I spill my guts? Turns out there are still people just finding out. I think I just wanted a moment to enjoy the moment without other peoples input, advice or thoughts.
It’s nice to have something to yourself especially on the first day, before the world puts it’s influence on it.
I think I hope people say that I am smart but a little part of me would want them to say I’m generous. I think I personally value the smart label while knowing that being generous maybe a better character trait.
I actually started reading a book about boundaries. I’ve had discussions with my sister and it has been communicated that I may let people “take the piss” once in a while. I’m holding a grudge about the treatment I have received from people I think should have cared more for and about me. I try to meet people where they are as I expect to be met where I am but even I sometimes feel like the WTF is going on here from my interactions with people.
I try to forgive but to be honest in the heat of an argument I think it takes me a lot longer than it should to let something go. Oftentimes, I give people chances who end up doing the exact same thing and if I was more religious I would justify it by saying no one is perfect and give others grace but somethings seem intentional to me. Some slights are on purpose or repeated because of the lack of concequencses.
My aunt posted a great meme it said have you ever forgiven and then gotten new information. That’s how I feel, that I forgive then inevitably new information comes forward. So to answer the question yes I am holding a grudge and honestly I probably won’t stop because why did you do that? Why did you say that? Why weren’t you there for me? But while going through the other posts I saw the following quote
I religiously listen to podcasts while working. I will occasionally listen to music but podcasts are my default work companion. Once in the full “work zone” I will usually stop paying attention or lower the volume if there’s an interesting discussion amongst coworkers.
Today I forgot my earphones needless to say the walk from the parking lot was gruesome and when I finally sat down my thought was eurghhhhh why me?!??
Well it wasn’t all bad I did that thing where you connect with people infront of you instead of strangers you’ve never met.
I heard some awkward conversions, started some uninteresting ones and what do you know I didn’t die from not having something in my ear all day.
So what do I listen to at work podcasts with a touch of gossip inbetween episodes or ad breaks.
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